personal – reckless & terribly gay

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me: I’m so lonely I want a romantic relationship

someone: messages me on a dating site that I signed up for to find dates

me: leave!!! me!!! alone!!!!!!

My orthodontist office is mostly kids (because most people probably don’t wait for adulthood to get braces?) And there’s this toddler dancing around as I type. Somewhere between 3 and 5, she’s wearing this big puffy skirt and like, rainbow sneakers and dancing and singing her little heart out like this waiting room is her own personal stage and honestly I have never felt so much joy as watching this little tot dance. I don’t know if her song is from a kids movie or if she’s making it up but I am feeling it. Every time she falls she makes it dramatic and works it but also gets back up. I’ve never admired someone more.

self care is probably *not* ignoring your family and locking yourself in your room to watch Donnie Darko but imma do it anyways

So I know I only have like 10 followers who interact with my posts, but if anyone plays the sims 4 you should go follow my simblr @candyypantssims (especially if you use mods. I do recolors)

I made a seperate account for sims stuff so I’m split between two Tumblr accounts now. When we gonna get a feature to easily switch between accounts like Instagram hmm????

Good things abt my ex: was the first person to make me orange juice + peach schnapps (a delicious drink I’m drinking right now)

my sleep schedule fell apart last week so I’m nocturnal again. It’s 6 am and I haven’t slept. But the thing is my mom and I go for a walk every morning at like 5 am. I’m in like, sleepover mode of like, being awake for too long and talking about weird shit and during the walk I wouldn’t shut up about liminal spaces and the Mandela effect and shit.

Also during the walk this one lady was on the other side of the street then out of nowhere like, stumble walked across the street to where we were and I deadass thought I was gonna have to kill a bitch she scared the shit outta me I thought she was possessed or some shit. Plus the moon was out and full and I think she was fuckin shit up just cuz she can.

okay so I know there’s a ton of posts like “does one healthy thing: I am THRIVING mental illness WHO?” and I get that and it is 6000% relatable

today has been that day for me and I don’t expect today to be a huge turning point or the start of complete recovery or anything but it’s good because it kinda… reset me and made me feel like a real person again.

Since school is over and the holidays are over I finally have time for myself. Today I made HUGE strides in cleaning my room and I actually motivated myself into lifting weights today. I feel good. I wanna feel even better tomorrrow.